So it is hard to sum up all the crazy changes that have occurred for Jordan and I since... well, since we met in general. The last two and a half years have been full of a lot of changes. For us, all these changes have been awesome most of the time, overwhelming some of the time, but thankfully it has all worked out just wonderfully.
The most recent changes have been our move out of Wyoming. I had been interviewing for a position in Denver starting in late September. After two phone interviews, three trips for face-to-face interviews - I was suppose to start my position December 1. So we made the plans and then four days before the big move I was informed that the budget had been cut and the position I was interviewed for had been eliminated. So, we were in tough spot. Stay or go?
Obviously we decided to go. So, we moved in early December into our downtown Denver apartment. The move went smoothly (with the help of four of Jordan's friends). We live on the 6th floor of an older apartment building (more awkward than vintage old), and our place is newly remodeled with a lovely little balcony. So as far as living goes, we have been set.
It was upon returning from Christmas vacation in early January that the stress of me still not getting any calls or interviews for a job actually became real. We were running out of funds and quickly. Even though Jordan and I were happy to have made the decision to move - it was becoming more apparent that I was probably going to have to accept a position that was much below my expectations (aka ANYTHING). I got a bite from a Banana Republic that is near our home and started a few shifts. I was excited to be working but pretty disappointed to not be using my degrees (especially since it has taken over 6 years to get my two degrees in the first place). That same week I got an interview for about 5 design related positions! I was thrilled! Long story short, I was offered a graphic design position with the Douglas County Libraries and I accepted!
While this was exciting news for us, we had another little thing had come up... I was pregnant. I am specifically using a period at the end of that sentence because it was more overwhelming than exciting. Luckily we found this new out a whopping two days after receiving my job offer, so at least I had a job, right?
The first doctors appointment was probably different that most. Jordan and I nervously chit chatted, but there was a lot of awkward silence - mainly because if I would have spoken I would have been in tears. I know, I know - how terrible, a baby is a blessing, blah blah blah. I am embarrassed to admit this fact because I don't want to sound heartless, but it is oh so true that I was not excited about it. Needless to say - I ended up crying most of the way home (and not out of joy).
Since the news was a surprise to us, I was grateful for the two weeks I had before I started my new job. Little did I know that most of that was going to be spent lying around and feeling quite ill. The term "Morning Sickness" implies that there will be relief at some point during the day and that was not quite the case for me. But, after the 10-week appointment, as Jordan and I were leaving the doctor's office - he grabbed me, wrapped his arms around me and said, "I am so excited to have a family with you." That simple gesture of joy, really made me feel good AND more comfortable with the reality of the situation - We are starting our family. It is happening a few years earlier than planned, but I am really grateful that it is. I know the Lord is just trying to show me once again, that I cannot control everything and blessing us with a child in the process.
Time has really flown by since. All of the changes have been - intense. But I feel that our relationship, our love, and our lives are better. I am excited to be starting a family with Jordan. He is so loving, kind, and understanding. He is going to be a great father, and I would be nothing without him. So, here is to a lifetime of the unexpected, with the man of my dreams. *Clink*
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